Well, after several hours of crying today and for lack of a better term…feeling sorry for myself, I picked up the pieces of my heavy heart and moved forward.
Mom and I decided to go to Butterfly World, which was very cool. I also thought it was somewhat symbolic…these beautiful butterflies were once not so pretty caterpillars and cocoons. It’s a lot like this disease, I’m not so pretty right now especially internally, but hopefully one day I will become a beautiful healthy butterfly. It might sound corny, but I found peace today with that thought.
I know there will be better days. A good friend of mine suggested to just take one day at a time, and to not focus so much on the future, at this time. I thought that was good advice. Then a family member suggested I not play the “what if” game, again good advice. I don’t know where I would be without all of you guys praying, sharing encouraging words, and just being so supportive for me. Even though I am so far away from everyone, today I felt surrounded by love.