So, most of you are aware that Lyme Disease looks completely normal on the outside. Seriously, if you aren’t in a wheel chair or in a hospital bed no one really knows you are sick, or just how sick you really are.
It’s actually very annoying. I hate it when people tell me I look good. Blah blah blah. Sure, everyone is trying to be nice and probably don’t know what else to say but…yadda yadda yadda.
Still, when one is dying on the inside it’s so cruel to look okay on the outside. It’s like a sick joke. It’s like opening up your favorite chocolate to find it’s moldy on the inside.
Boy, that would suck.
So, what if I didn’t look good on the outside anymore? What if I went all Britney Spears and shaved my head? Then would people stop telling me I look good?
Or, I could look at it as a blessing. Thank you God for not making me look bad on the outside too. It’s already hard enough. Thank you for not making me look like I have Leprosy and for not scaring people off. Because if they could see my insides I’m positive they would run.
So my choice is simple. Thank you for giving me a fairly decent outer appearance with all of this other crap because I think you know that I couldn’t handle much more and you are showing me your compassion.
I won’t shave my head, but I won’t pretend that it hasn’t been on my mind.