My blog has been a nice distraction from the fact that I haven’t felt good. It’s therapeutic and fun! But, since I got sick and I haven’t been able to work or really do very much of anything throughout the days…I’ve have become overwhelmed with extreme guilt.
Guilt because I’m not working and providing, guilt because this disease is so damn expensive, guilt about not being the best mother or wife, guilt about not doing as much housework as I would like, guilt that my babies might be sick because of me, and the list goes on and on.
I know I need to give it up. Let my guilt and burdens go, and sometimes I do…for awhile anyways. I’ll be honest it’s hard. So while blogging lets me be open and honest with myself and anyone who happens to read it, I still feel like I should be doing more.
It’s a constant battle and I’m just so tired. I’m going to try and not blame myself and pray a lot about it. But, I’m also going to be proactive and even if I am sick I still want to provide for my family.
So, wish me luck on my new adventure. As I mentioned before, essential oils are helping me fight this deadly disease and I am so thankful for them and believe in them.
I started a Facebook page for my oils, and I am hopeful that while I am down that I can still find a way to make a little bit of money on the side. I have never ever sold anything before so I am very new to this, but I know that I believe in them and I am passionate about them so that had got to help.
Thanks for reading! My FB page is Effingham & Surrounding Area’s Oily Solutions